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I believe I relate to the Character Elphaba from the tales of WICKED. I use this because I am of the Elphaba complex with my sister being the Glenda complex. She is ms perfect, ms popular, ms goody two shoes while I am a loner, i am not perfect, but I do have my dreams and hopes like any other. No matter how my sister tries to help me, I always go back to being my abnormal self. The actions I take and the mindset I have my parents do not agree with and it seems all the glory goes to ms perfect sister. She is in a university, going to Europe to study abroad since she excels in her work, never does anything wrong and always makes the parents happy. My hobbies are looked down on, one I am forbbiden from, and I never do right in their eyes. I am not in college because I am unsure what I want to do. My dreams of being on my own and Defying Gravity are not what my parents see for me. But I still plan on defying gravity and the line "And If I'm flying solo, at least I'm flying free!" | |
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| The Breakdown of my Life....
Social Life....Rockin hardcore as usual!!!
Love Life... non-existant!!!
Work Life.... BORING AND I AM GOING TO GO CRAZY!!!!
School Life.. Starting up soon!!!
Money... Not enough EVER!!!
Avalon life..... *anime hearts and big eyes* WOW!!!! ROCKIN HARDCOREZ!
I am working on stuffzz...
- Mood:blah
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| Things have definately changed for the better since I last updated!
I quit CFA and were actually on good terms. I get my last paycheck this friday. :) It's a bitter sweet break up. I'm definately am going to miss CFA and all I have learned from working there a year and a few months but my future looks so much brighter. The last week has been a mini "age of discovery" for me. I haven't had to work and I've been able to spend so much time with my friends that I've been on cloud nine all week! This past weekend was a WONDERFUL come down to a new dawn!
I traveled up to NoVA with Profitt and Rin and spent the weekend at Brenna's place. Friday I just kind of chilled and readied for Ren Faire Saturday! My first Ren Faire EVAR!!! I went with Meggs and Will and had a BLAST. I got a pair of leather bracers and a coin necklace. not to mention a bunch of lovely memories. Like Meggs and her killer boots! :)
So after Ren Faire, we went back to Meggs and collected all the alcohol from her b-day party the night before and headed over to Jafryn/Rob's house for a good by to Tim D (who never showed) but we still HAD A BLAST. It was kind of meant to be a halloween party but 1/2 came in costume, 1/2 didn't. It was all gravy. People came in increments which kept it fresh and fun! Everyone got wasted and we all had A BLAST. From fake sparring to shooting arrows with duct taped boffer ends, Gerry in a mini skirt, corset top and thong. UGH! everyone was beating up on each other. Well the men were, the ladies were laughing at the men! We all were just having good, clean fun and not a moment was lost with drama or tears or anything! It was Rob, Profitt, his g/f Tamara, me, Meggs, Will, Kim, Pete, Yasi, Joe,Fox, Angela, Gerry, Rin, his g/f, his g/f's sister and brother, Neal, Wendy, Kody, Tomar(dunno his real name -_-) We all ended up crashing at Rob's. Which it was big enough for all of us to be there! It was awesome! I had Yasi's flogger and went around whipping people and talking like a gurnei with my Iakrey bunny. It had FANGS! So it was my iakrey bunny. So I was like, "what if i made one inc?"
"Hey mr iakrey, bite my BUNNY!!!" lulz!
We were all hyped about Morsander and talking how we're all going to die one way/time or another! :) We can't wait!
This week the "Hampton Roads Crew" is making Masks and carving pumpkins! I can't wait!
Today I started my new job in Medical REcords and I am looking forward to it! :) It was a nice first day. Did all the paperwork and all that jazz.... worked for an hour with a nice woman and learned some stuffz. I go in tomorrow at 8am -_- oh well, I work my butt of to make money for school, car, health insurance, rent, gas, traveling,etc. *yikes*
On that note, it's 1052, bed time for Lex!!!
Good night to all! and happy dreams...
MORSANDER; t minus 4 days away! :) - Location:mah house!
- Mood:happy!
 - Music:I need a hero by Bonnie Tyler!
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| Yesterday was a very LOW day for me... I had to be at work by 620am to be told as soon as i got in I had to get register's ready and to go the layout where everyone was to be for the day. *whEw*
So we open and people get there and we find out that Andrew (a shift leader) forgot his Adderol today. *great* So by 11am, he was going to be ADHD. No one believed me... 1130am comes around... GUESS WHAT HAPPENED!?!? Andrew lost his attention span. When people were like, "Alexis, you weren't kidding." I was like, "I TOLD YOU SO!" So, yeah, people don't take me seriously. Then I was being accused of not doing anything all day. WTF??? Everything I was trying to do was being done... I took the initiative to mop or stock and Ernesto (a new shift leader) was telling andrew to do it. When Andrew got distracted, I tried to keep him on track and Ernesto told me to "let him run his shift" WTF again? I wasn't stepping on toes! I was keeping the boy moving. So by 8am, I didn't want to be there and this made it worse.
3:00pm gets around and I am about to leave. Beau and Evan pull me aside..., *sniffle* "I'm not mature enough to be part of leadership."
*eyes well up* I have been negative and from feedback the past few weeks, I've been making negative comments.
wOw
So, I lost my Leadership Position.... I quietly left, got in the car and lost it. *cue: streams of tears* I couldn't believe it. I knew it was bound to happen because I was only getting negative feedback and Beau didn't even know what he wanted from me as a Leader. I can't read minds.
I called my sister while I was driving home crying and telling her how hurt i was and how degraded I had been at work. She wasn't happy at how I was being treated. So she did the sisterly thing of telling me it's going to be okay and I deserve so much better than Chick Fil A. She's right.... Me losing my leadership position was a loss and at the same time, a gain. I gained the that it was time for me to move on. So Monday, I put in my two weeks.
My Prince found out what was going on and texted me to make sure I was alright and that he was there for me and he loved me! :)
I love my prince so much and care for him so much! He told me he was proud of me for this and that I deserved so much better that what I was (or wasn't) getting. He made me feel a lot better! I slept well last night after a day of tears. ^_^
So now, I will be working in the building with my daddy ^_^ until I find another job. I'll be in medical records. I can wear scrubs and have lunch with dad and work M-F for only a little less than what I was making at CFA. I'm going to be going back to school for an anatomy and physiology class for a year and then I'll be going to Sentera's School of Health Professions to become a Surgical Assistant. :) I am ready for this and I know I will put my heart in it! :) - Location:mah house!
- Mood:optimistic
 - Music:Mystic's Dream
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| For the first three people that reply to me and re-post this challenge - I will send you something groovy.
It might be something I've made, or something cool from my hidden stash of fabulousity, it might be a mix CD - or a rubber duck, a book I think you will enjoy, or something else that is awesome.
Whatever it is, I promise that I will get it to you in 365 days or less. (I will need your snail mail if you're not local).
The only thing you need to do in order to participate is to be one of the first three to reply to this, AND post this very same thing on YOUR live journal - cause its fun to give people stuff.
(it really is)) - Mood:cold
 - Music:Made to Love by Toby Mac
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| Life has its ups and downs.
Up's: Having the weekend off to go visit people in Northern Virginia.....
AKA: AVALON EVENT!!!! It was uber awesome and while being sick made it a bit difficult, I SURVIVED! :) My body kept itself in working order....UNTIL
I got home late, well, Sunday morning.
After the event, we all went to BK and I ended up staying there until about 10:30pm with the librarians. I can pretty much say I am one of them. After Ashley and the gang saw all like, 6 of my lore journals and spell tomes, that I ACTUALLY care about knowladge, they were impressed.
So yeah, whew hoo on that....
Down's: I'm in day five of being sick and it's making me fustrated. You see, when I get sick, I get sick. And it even after the hard part gets by, It takes a week or two to get back to 100%. raWr on that. But I think I am going to call out sick from work tomorrow as I have the voice of a smoker and I have the energy of a sloth. -_-
I actually mean to put more here but my energy is gone...
- Location:mah house!
- Mood:and cold
 - Music:goldeneye by Tina Turner
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The past three days... that would be this entire week. I have come home and just broken down in tears. What I thought was taken care of, just gets worse. Monday happened where it was Labor day and i was running the night shift from the kitchen as I ran the kitchen... Moral of the story: I can't be in two places at once. Then Tuesday happened where I arrived for the afternoon shift and didn't even get a good morning or hey alexis! from my boss. And then I was belittled by a team member named Andrew who is training to lead a shift. He is ADHD and didn't remember taking his Adderoll ( i dunno or care how to spell it) so it made him extreamly jumpy and unable to concentrate.
*raWr*
So while Andrew is standing there telling ME what to do, Josh is standing by laughing and letting it happen.
Josh went from my best friend that I could tell ANYTHING and we talked about EVERYTHING,to him making it clear that he was my boss. I can't hug him, i can't talk to him without him telling our operator and I can't even be myself around him.... It's not professional.. *Cue: ton of bricks fall on Lex*
I'm negative and he's not sure if he wants me around because of it.
WTH???
So last night I called my "mama" aka: bebe another Team Leader/Manager-in-Training. We're both in the same predicment. And we just talked for over an hour... well talked, cried, yelled, etc.
But we came up with this.
It's just a test of our endurance and no matter how many tears we cry, We WILL SURVIVE and get through this. :)
AND YES, WE WILL...
thanks for tuning in! - Location:mah house!
- Mood:stressed
 - Music:Whose Line Is It Anyway?
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| Well, a lot has happened since I was on here last. For some reason our home computer lost it's IP Address so we're using my Laptop til we get it figured out.
Now we have begun our enterence into the Fall season and I have to say, I am kind of glad. Things in my life will settle down and we'll get back to normal. well, what is more normal than the kraziness of summer. THis summer was quite fufilling, not to say it was exciting. But I'm glad to slow down a bit. I feel I was in operation overdrive. Going everywhere, working every moment I could to make up for lost time, and doing things with the family and on my own. With that being said, I am excited for my near future.
I recently ran into some problems at work and felt my boss was distancing himself from me. The last time he did that was with a few old managers right before they left CFA. I felt I was on the chopping block and he was seperating himself from me to make it easier on him. Thankfully, it was dealt with and he told me I have not been on the choping block, nor does he see me on it anytime soon. He just backed off to let me do my thing as a Team Leader/Manager-in-Training. So now I am back to being a bit less stressful. No matter what people say, Work at CFA is my life. I have to work to make the money to be able to own MY car, and travel where I want to go and pay for MY health insurance and all that jazz....
That's right, I'm becoming more indpendent with every decision in life I make. It's very nice and now my goal is by summer of 2008, I will be able to support myself and be living on my own. Where will I go? More than likely, Virginia Beach. If work keeps going well for me, I can get a raise and get my manager shirts and khaki pants and have stability in what I am, I'll be doing well. I also plan to take a few classes so I can begin to go to school to become a Surgical Technician. That would be my absolute dream to be doing all these things. *le sigh*
I've gone to a few Avalon events this summer and had the TIME OF MY LIFE! I forgot how awesome it was when it was personal and only about 20 PC's instead of 100 PC's at a convention. Speaking of convention, MORSANDER is coming up and I DEFINATELY plan on going! :)
Well that is about it for now! Laterz! - Location:mah house!
- Mood:cheerful
 - Music:Home by Daughtry
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| Wow... what a month!
It's been so long since I've written and I've got a LOT to tell! :)
First, I went on the Grosso Family Vacation a couple weeks ago to Washington D.C. It was okay but the say I was to drive up to meet up with the family was the day my sister drove home to go to camp with our church. Which meant my other half wasn't going to be there and I was going to be alone in that sense. Kind of didn't want to go.... I was right. I was kind of alone. I mean, our family is of 6 people. Parents, Stepsisters, sisters. And it was parents, stepsisters and Alexis.... LAME! It was kind of lonely. But I still enjoyed it.
I got to go to my favorite place in DC. and I have a new place I enjoy. I went to the Air And Space Museum and that was fun! We saw two IMAX's. Then we went to the National Holocaust Museum. ZOMG! That was so interesting. Walking through everything they did and saw and experienced. It was very humbling and it was very quiet in there. WOW... definitely made you open your eyes a bit more. So that was over and then came my the week that i was looking forward to since May! PROJECT IF!!! OMG! PROJECT IF 2007!
So what is Project If? Well it's where a team of marketing people come to CFA and help us try to see what we could do if we put our minds to it! So it was an okay week to me. It was a LONG WEEK. I worked EVERYDAY for about 10 hours per day. So much, I worked 2 to close Wednesday and then did Truck on Thursday at 330am. I didn't sleep at all. I didn't get done until 630am.. Well, My wonderful and lovely boy Josh was with me and he MADE ME GO HOME because we weren't going to be done anytime soon and I had to be back by 11am. *sigh* I love that boy! He took the papers and began to lead me out. I was like "what, were not done." He said he didn't care that I needed to go home and try to sleep. I'm so Thankful that he did. I only got two hours of sleep and we wouldn't have been done by the time I had to be back. I was dragging all day.
My excitement was on Thursday evening when we turned CFA into a Restaurant Style place for a few hours. It was exciting. Everyone looked really good. I felt really good. I was the hostess and Josh was my right hand man as the host.
My Prince was in a TUXEDO! He looked so Handsome... *happy tear* I was so proud. He finally met my family and he was just so loverly to look at.... anyway.
It went pretty darn well and we were all happy. After, we got to take pictures in the Limo Beau had rented for the night. It was pretty awesome! :) By the end of the night, I was ready for bed and the heels I wore, they had a death warrant on them. MY FEET *ugh*
So then Josh sent me home again and I just made it home and to my bed. *Zonk* Out I go!
Just to be back at work at 600am to go again. It wasn't a bad day, I was up at 5am and out I went! So now I am home and chill-laxin! :)
Okay well, that is all. I am heading to NJ next week to visit the G-parents! :) We're going to NYC to see a Broadway Show! :) I'm hoping WICKED but we'll see! :)
Okay, thanks for tuning in! Sorry it was long but I had so much to share!
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| So, this past week was AWESOME!!!!!!!!! I was in Manassas for three days! and let me tell you, I went out more in those three days then I have in the past 6 months! IT WAS AMAZING! I had so much fun from beginning to end! THANK YOU TO ALL WHO WERE A PART OF MY WONDERFUL TRIP!!!! :)
So I got back home with not a moment to lose to get to work! :) It was a nice shift! I got to see my prince! :) He surprised me by calling me when I was out of town. He said he missed me!^_^ I Heart Him! But I hadn't seen him but once this week until today! I got a whole 6 hours of his time! We all met up at the store for an all out cleaning! :) It was fun!
And now I am home with a BUNCH of things to do! :)
Tomorrow is going to be a full day! Glad it's my day off!
<3 <3 <3 Lex - Mood:accomplished
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