Lovely Little Sunder Lady

Writer's Block: Fictional Character

Mon, 05 May 2008 06:29:55 GMT

What fictional character do you relate to most and why?

I believe I relate to the Character Elphaba from the tales of WICKED. I use this because I am of the Elphaba complex with my sister being the Glenda complex. She is ms perfect, ms popular, ms goody two shoes while I am a loner, i am not perfect, but I do have my dreams and hopes like any other. No matter how my sister tries to help me, I always go back to being my abnormal self. The actions I take and the mindset I have my parents do not agree with and it seems all the glory goes to ms perfect sister. She is in a university, going to Europe to study abroad since she excels in her work, never does anything wrong and always makes the parents happy. My hobbies are looked down on, one I am forbbiden from, and I never do right in their eyes. I am not in college because I am unsure what I want to do. My dreams of being on my own and Defying Gravity are not what my parents see for me. But I still plan on defying gravity and the line "And If I'm flying solo, at least I'm flying free!"

Tue, 11 Dec 2007 23:05:17 GMT

The Breakdown of my Life....

Social Life....Rockin hardcore as usual!!!

Love Life... non-existant!!!

Work Life.... BORING AND I AM GOING TO GO CRAZY!!!!

School Life.. Starting up soon!!!

Money... Not enough EVER!!!

Avalon life..... *anime hearts and big eyes* WOW!!!! ROCKIN HARDCOREZ!

I am working on stuffzz...

how things change...

Tue, 23 Oct 2007 02:53:31 GMT

Things have definately changed for the better since I last updated!
I quit CFA and were actually on good terms. I get my last paycheck this friday. :) It's a bitter sweet break up. I'm definately am going to miss CFA and all I have learned from working there a year and a few months but my future looks so much brighter. The last week has been a mini "age of discovery" for me. I haven't had to work and I've been able to spend so much time with my friends that I've been on cloud nine all week! This past weekend was a WONDERFUL come down to a new dawn!
I traveled up to NoVA with Profitt and Rin and spent the weekend at Brenna's place. Friday I just kind of chilled and readied for Ren Faire Saturday! My first Ren Faire EVAR!!! I went with Meggs and Will and had a BLAST. I got a pair of leather bracers and a coin necklace. not to mention a bunch of lovely memories. Like Meggs and her killer boots! :)
So after Ren Faire, we went back to Meggs and collected all the alcohol from her b-day party the night before and headed over to Jafryn/Rob's house for a good by to Tim D (who never showed) but we still HAD A BLAST. It was kind of meant to be a halloween party but 1/2 came in costume, 1/2 didn't. It was all gravy. People came in increments which kept it fresh and fun! Everyone got wasted and we all had A BLAST. From fake sparring to shooting arrows with duct taped boffer ends, Gerry in a mini skirt, corset top and thong. UGH! everyone was beating up on each other. Well the men were, the ladies were laughing at the men! We all were just having good, clean fun and not a moment was lost with drama or tears or anything! It was Rob, Profitt, his g/f Tamara, me, Meggs, Will, Kim, Pete, Yasi, Joe,Fox, Angela, Gerry, Rin, his g/f, his g/f's sister and brother, Neal, Wendy, Kody, Tomar(dunno his real name -_-) We all ended up crashing at Rob's. Which it was big enough for all of us to be there! It was awesome! I had Yasi's flogger and went around whipping people and talking like a gurnei with my Iakrey bunny. It had FANGS! So it was my iakrey bunny. So I was like, "what if i made one inc?"
"Hey mr iakrey, bite my BUNNY!!!" lulz!
We were all hyped about Morsander and talking how we're all going to die one way/time or another! :) We can't wait!
This week the "Hampton Roads Crew" is making Masks and carving pumpkins! I can't wait!
Today I started my new job in Medical REcords and I am looking forward to it! :) It was a nice first day. Did all the paperwork and all that jazz.... worked for an hour with a nice woman and learned some stuffz. I go in tomorrow at 8am -_- oh well, I work my butt of to make money for school, car, health insurance, rent, gas, traveling,etc. *yikes*

On that note, it's 1052, bed time for Lex!!!
Good night to all! and happy dreams...
MORSANDER; t minus 4 days away! :)

Another Turning of the Page of my Life

Sun, 14 Oct 2007 00:30:28 GMT

Yesterday was a very LOW day for me... I had to be at work by 620am to be told as soon as i got in I had to get register's ready and to go the layout where everyone was to be for the day. *whEw*
So we open and people get there and we find out that Andrew (a shift leader) forgot his Adderol today. *great* So by 11am, he was going to be ADHD. No one believed me... 1130am comes around... GUESS WHAT HAPPENED!?!? Andrew lost his attention span. When people were like, "Alexis, you weren't kidding." I was like, "I TOLD YOU SO!" So, yeah, people don't take me seriously. Then I was being accused of not doing anything all day. WTF??? Everything I was trying to do was being done... I took the initiative to mop or stock and Ernesto (a new shift leader) was telling andrew to do it. When Andrew got distracted, I tried to keep him on track and Ernesto told me to "let him run his shift" WTF again? I wasn't stepping on toes! I was keeping the boy moving. So by 8am, I didn't want to be there and this made it worse.
3:00pm gets around and I am about to leave. Beau and Evan pull me aside..., *sniffle* "I'm not mature enough to be part of leadership."
*eyes well up* I have been negative and from feedback the past few weeks, I've been making negative comments.
wOw
So, I lost my Leadership Position.... I quietly left, got in the car and lost it. *cue: streams of tears* I couldn't believe it. I knew it was bound to happen because I was only getting negative feedback and Beau didn't even know what he wanted from me as a Leader. I can't read minds.
I called my sister while I was driving home crying and telling her how hurt i was and how degraded I had been at work. She wasn't happy at how I was being treated. So she did the sisterly thing of telling me it's going to be okay and I deserve so much better than Chick Fil A. She's right.... Me losing my leadership position was a loss and at the same time, a gain. I gained the that it was time for me to move on. So Monday, I put in my two weeks.
My Prince found out what was going on and texted me to make sure I was alright and that he was there for me and he loved me! :)
I love my prince so much and care for him so much! He told me he was proud of me for this and that I deserved so much better that what I was (or wasn't) getting. He made me feel a lot better! I slept well last night after a day of tears. ^_^
So now, I will be working in the building with my daddy ^_^ until I find another job. I'll be in medical records. I can wear scrubs and have lunch with dad and work M-F for only a little less than what I was making at CFA. I'm going to be going back to school for an anatomy and physiology class for a year and then I'll be going to Sentera's School of Health Professions to become a Surgical Assistant. :) I am ready for this and I know I will put my heart in it! :)

Wed, 26 Sep 2007 16:21:40 GMT

For the first three people that reply to me and re-post this challenge - I will send you something groovy.

It might be something I've made, or something cool from my hidden stash of fabulousity, it might be a mix CD - or a rubber duck, a book I think you will enjoy, or something else that is awesome.

Whatever it is, I promise that I will get it to you in 365 days or less. (I will need your snail mail if you're not local).

The only thing you need to do in order to participate is to be one of the first three to reply to this, AND post this very same thing on YOUR live journal - cause its fun to give people stuff.

(it really is))

Tue, 25 Sep 2007 04:49:24 GMT

Life has its ups and downs.
Up's: Having the weekend off to go visit people in Northern Virginia.....
AKA: AVALON EVENT!!!!   It was uber awesome and while being sick made it a bit difficult, I SURVIVED! :) My body kept itself in working order....UNTIL
I got home late, well, Sunday morning.
After the event, we all went to BK and I ended up staying there until about 10:30pm with the librarians. I can pretty much say I am one of them. After Ashley and the gang saw all like, 6 of my lore journals and spell tomes, that I ACTUALLY care about knowladge, they were impressed.
So yeah, whew hoo on that....

Down's: I'm in day five of being sick and it's making me fustrated. You see, when I get sick, I get sick. And it even after the hard part gets by, It takes a week or two to get back to 100%. raWr on that. But I think I am going to call out sick from work tomorrow as I have the voice of a smoker and I have the energy of a sloth. -_-

I actually mean to put more here but my energy is gone...

raWr

Thu, 06 Sep 2007 02:54:53 GMT

*ugh*
The past three days... that would be this entire week. I have come home and just broken down in tears. What I thought was taken care of, just gets worse. Monday happened where it was Labor day and i was running the night shift from the kitchen as I ran the kitchen... Moral of the story: I can't be in two places at once. Then Tuesday happened where I arrived for the afternoon shift and didn't even get a good morning or hey alexis! from my boss. And then I was belittled by a team member named Andrew who is training to lead a shift. He is ADHD and didn't remember taking his Adderoll ( i dunno or care how to spell it) so it made him extreamly jumpy and unable to concentrate.
*raWr*
So while Andrew is standing there telling ME what to do, Josh is standing by laughing and letting it happen.
Josh went from my best friend that I could tell ANYTHING and we talked about EVERYTHING,to him making it clear that he was my boss. I can't hug him, i can't talk to him without him telling our operator and I can't even be myself around him.... It's not professional.. *Cue: ton of bricks fall on Lex*
I'm negative and he's not sure if he wants me around because of it.
WTH???
So last night I called my "mama" aka: bebe another Team Leader/Manager-in-Training. We're both in the same predicment. And we just talked for over an hour... well talked, cried, yelled, etc.
But we came up with this.
It's just a test of our endurance and no matter how many tears we cry, We WILL SURVIVE and get through this. :)

AND YES, WE WILL...

thanks for tuning in!

Life Update.... as usual

Sun, 02 Sep 2007 17:51:34 GMT

Well, a lot has happened since I was on here last. For some reason our home computer lost it's IP Address so we're using my Laptop til we get it figured out.

Now we have begun our enterence into the Fall season and I have to say, I am kind of glad. Things in my life will settle down and we'll get back to normal. well, what is more normal than the kraziness of summer. THis summer was quite fufilling, not to say it was exciting. But I'm glad to slow down a bit. I feel I was in operation overdrive. Going everywhere, working every moment I could to make up for lost time, and doing things with the family and on my own. With that being said, I am excited for my near future.
I recently ran into some problems at work and felt my boss was distancing himself from me. The last time he did that was with a few old managers right before they left CFA. I felt I was on the chopping block and he was seperating himself from me to make it easier on him. Thankfully, it was dealt with and he told me I have not been on the choping block, nor does he see me on it anytime soon. He just backed off to let me do my thing as a Team Leader/Manager-in-Training. So now I am back to being a bit less stressful. No matter what people say, Work at CFA is my life. I have to work to make the money to be able to own MY car, and travel where I want to go and pay for MY health insurance and all that jazz....
That's right, I'm becoming more indpendent with every decision in life I make. It's very nice and now my goal is by summer of 2008, I will be able to support myself and be living on my own. Where will I go? More than likely, Virginia Beach. If work keeps going well for me, I can get a raise and get my manager shirts and khaki pants and have stability in what I am, I'll be doing well. I also plan to take a few classes so I can begin to go to school to become a Surgical Technician. That would be my absolute dream to be doing all these things. *le sigh*

I've gone to a few Avalon events this summer and had the TIME OF MY LIFE! I forgot how awesome it was when it was personal and only about 20 PC's instead of 100 PC's at a convention. Speaking of convention, MORSANDER is coming up and I DEFINATELY plan on going! :)

Well that is about it for now! Laterz!

Wow... update. It's a LONG ONE!

Sat, 28 Jul 2007 04:37:22 GMT

Wow... what a month!
It's been so long since I've written and I've got a LOT to tell! :)
First, I went on the Grosso Family Vacation a couple weeks ago to Washington D.C. It was okay but the say I was to drive up to meet up with the family was the day my sister drove home to go to camp with our church. Which meant my other half wasn't going to be there and I was going to be alone in that sense. Kind of didn't want to go.... I was right. I was kind of alone. I mean, our family is of 6 people. Parents, Stepsisters, sisters. And it was parents, stepsisters and Alexis.... LAME! It was kind of lonely. But I still enjoyed it.
I got to go to my favorite place in DC. and I have a new place I enjoy. I went to the Air And Space Museum and that was fun! We saw two IMAX's. Then we went to the National Holocaust Museum. ZOMG! That was so interesting. Walking through everything they did and saw and experienced. It was very humbling and it was very quiet in there. WOW... definitely made you open your eyes a bit more. So that was over and then came my the week that i was looking forward to since May! PROJECT IF!!! OMG! PROJECT IF 2007!

So what is Project If? Well it's where a team of marketing people come to CFA and help us try to see what we could do if we put our minds to it! So it was an okay week to me. It was a LONG WEEK. I worked EVERYDAY for about 10 hours per day. So much, I worked 2 to close Wednesday and then did Truck on Thursday at 330am. I didn't sleep at all. I didn't get done until 630am.. Well, My wonderful and lovely boy Josh was with me and he MADE ME GO HOME because we weren't going to be done anytime soon and I had to be back by 11am. *sigh* I love that boy! He took the papers and began to lead me out. I was like "what, were not done." He said he didn't care that I needed to go home and try to sleep. I'm so Thankful that he did. I only got two hours of sleep and we wouldn't have been done by the time I had to be back. I was dragging all day.
My excitement was on Thursday evening when we turned CFA into a Restaurant Style place for a few hours. It was exciting. Everyone looked really good. I felt really good. I was the hostess and Josh was my right hand man as the host.
My Prince was in a TUXEDO! He looked so Handsome... *happy tear* I was so proud. He finally met my family and he was just so loverly to look at.... anyway.
It went pretty darn well and we were all happy. After, we got to take pictures in the Limo Beau had rented for the night. It was pretty awesome! :) By the end of the night, I was ready for bed and the heels I wore, they had a death warrant on them. MY FEET *ugh*
So then Josh sent me home again and I just made it home and to my bed. *Zonk* Out I go!
Just to be back at work at 600am to go again. It wasn't a bad day, I was up at 5am and out I went! So now I am home and chill-laxin! :)
Okay well, that is all. I am heading to NJ next week to visit the G-parents! :) We're going to NYC to see a Broadway Show! :) I'm hoping WICKED but we'll see! :)
Okay, thanks for tuning in! Sorry it was long but I had so much to share!

Life Updates one by one!

Mon, 09 Jul 2007 02:25:54 GMT

So, this past week was AWESOME!!!!!!!!! I was in Manassas for three days! and let me tell you, I went out more in those three days then I have in the past 6 months! IT WAS AMAZING! I had so much fun from beginning to end! THANK YOU TO ALL WHO WERE A PART OF MY WONDERFUL TRIP!!!! :)
So I got back home with not a moment to lose to get to work! :) It was a nice shift! I got to see my prince! :) He surprised me by calling me when I was out of town. He said he missed me!^_^ I Heart Him! But I hadn't seen him but once this week until today! I got a whole 6 hours of his time! We all met up at the store for an all out cleaning! :) It was fun!
And now I am home with a BUNCH of things to do! :)
Tomorrow is going to be a full day! Glad it's my day off!

<3 <3 <3 Lex

Sat, 30 Jun 2007 05:15:36 GMT

Well, lately I have been feeling different emotions in my life.
With work, it's mixed. I'm so proud of myself and yet the things that go on at work during my shifts, make me upset. I am realizing what I am getting into and I also know it's got ups and downs... I knew that but now it's come into a reality!
but as far as I GO... I'm feeling really good about myself lately. I'm more upbeat, I love to look into the mirror and I stand proud of who I am! :) I think the work promotion is getting me to where I want to be with my Self-Image! :) I'm feeling sexy.feminine.happy in my clothes and I smile a lot more! and I'm not trying to impress any one(men) anymore. I realized also, I have the men in my life for a reason. I wish my out-of-touch ones would talk to me more then we do. I miss all my guys when they aren't with me/ I'm not with them!
I hope my feelings keep up!

These are the Days Of Our Lives...

Mon, 25 Jun 2007 02:24:53 GMT

Today, we had a monthly meeting at work at 2pm. We, the managers, arrived there for a meeting at 1pm and our boss led us through a trust exercise. Where we paired up and half of us were blindfolded and led by our partners around CFA and we were doing various things like climbing a ladder, getting up on a chair, doing silly dance moves... Putting all our trust in our partner leading us. Next thing I know, Bebe and I are standing over Erwin as he crawls through our legs!!! ZOMG! What an experience! I found myself actually relaxed and I put my full trust in my partner. It turns out, they even switched up on us and I couldn't tell at all. It tells me that I AM able to trust them and it's not a lost cause.
Bottom line, we needed that reality check and Beau, our boss, was AWESOME as he spoke to us.
So then we do the meeting as a team and we are HYPED about this summer. SO MUCH IS HAPPENING! :)
After the meeting, we learn CFA cheers for when the VP and CEO of CFA come to the store in July. Bubba and Dan Cathy! :) I'm so excited!!!!!!! Not to mention this week and I am going to be a busy little Lex!
Tomorrow, I go in at 10am and get to paint the break room we're trying to create! Then at 5pm, Beau is taking me and a few of his girls out to dinner for a nice get-to-know-each other night. I am so excited... but the best part is when I got my copy of the store key! :) :) :) :) :) THAT MADE MY ENTIRE DAY JUST THAT MUCH MORE COMPLETE!!! :)
So this week, I will be leading a shift or two and be able for the shift to have "my personality" as Beau puts it! :)
I am satisfied as to where my life is going... Sometimes, It just needs a pick-me-up like today and Thank God it came when it did! :)

Pieces and all!
<3 Lex

Wed, 20 Jun 2007 05:53:27 GMT

So I had a bit of a meltdown at work today... well, this evening. I looked at the set-up sheet for tomorrow evening and I saw my name as crossed out of "Boards" section (boards=kitchen) and it was put in "Drive Thru Bagger" aka Front Line.... I'M ON THAT POSITION EVERY FUCKING DAY!!! Well, this was actually the piano on my mood following the anvil from earlier when i was suppose to have a progress meeting with my boss, Beau. It was the THIRD one he had set because the other times, he had other things going on. So I call him at 3:00pm sharp... just as he said. What do I get, "we're not meeting today...Sorry." I hung up after keeping the cheerie "okay" and my mood went down a bit. I got over it and moved on with my evening. Then I realized that it was just two people closing again. Me and another girl. Well the girl got an attitude and left. Leaving me to close front counter alone. I was sweating bullets and working my butt off. Then I was almost finished and went to look at the set up sheet. *cue: piano falling* I lost control and began to cry. *sigh* I hate crying, personally, it shows weakness, but lately, I feel weak. Day after day, I give all I've got into my work. I serve guests, I smile, I clean, I help, I step up when a manager needs to walk off for a while...EVERYTHING I'm suppose to do... just to turn around and do it again and again and again.
My boss is a good man, but I feel like he is NOT taking my seriously. I want the button up shirt, the vest and the bow-tie/scarf thing women managers wear. I want the privileges of having a swipe card and being able to run shifts... and it seems none of the other managers really understands where I am coming from. I am so eager... but they don't see it.

Sat, 16 Jun 2007 04:35:23 GMT

Well, I got the past few days off and it's been non-stop anyway. Yesterday, I was running around doing errands. One of them was getting my nails done and that was nice. But it felt rushed and wasn't as "pick me up" as I would have hoped. So yeah, today, went out to get my sister while her car got new tires, went to wal mart, went to the gym, came home, spent time with g-parent's, go to wal mart, go to farm fresh, go to a base ball game and then come home! so much for relaxing.
I'm excited for my getaway to NoVA in two weeks! :)
I'll be getting there June 29th or 30th. :) :)

Wed, 13 Jun 2007 04:59:28 GMT

28 Vanyar, 57 Noldor, 14 Teleri

The Vanyar are the highest of the high elves, and are considered the most noble, wise and beautiful, with their unique golden hair and fine features. They are the beloved of Manwe, ruler of Arda (the world), air and winds. The Vanyar live in a golden city at the foot of Manwe's palace, which is placed on top of the highest mountain.

The Noldor are called the "deep elves", for they are clever and full of emotions. They are the finest craftsmen in the world, and by far the best builders. They are born leaders, with their charisma and assertiveness. They are favoured by Aule, god of crafts and the materials the world is made of. They live in the white city, Tirion, on top of the green hill Tuna.

The teleri are called "Lindar"-The Singers, for they have the fairest voices amongst the elves. They live in Swan-Haven, in houses made of pearls they fished from the sea. They are the best sailors and ship-makers and their silvery hair sparkles in the starlight. They are most loyal to Ulmo, lord of water and music, who taught them all they know.

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You scored 89% on Major Christian Biblical beliefs

You believe the percentage shown of most major Christian - including Catholic and Orthodox - statement's of faith and creeds.

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Your Score: Jasmine

You scored 51 Kindness, 37 Morality, and 41 Wisdom!

The lovely princess Jasmine is who you identify with. You have a high sense of kindness which allows you to befriend most anyone, even a large tiger. Your morals are average which allows you to accept others who are different than you, or may be considered social outcasts. This acceptance mixed with kindness attracts people to you and allows you to empathize and listen well. A fiery romantic like Lumiere would be best for you.

Link: The Which Disney Character Are You Test written by dakotaguy on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test

Your Score: Awesome Girl II

You scored 76 looks, 78 personality, 55 politics, and 82 sex drive!

You don't seem to either know about or care about politics, but you are beautiful and a good person (so it seems), and you seem to have a high sex drive. You're probably a great wife or girlfriend, and you know how to make sure that the ones you love are happy. You have a wonderful life ahead of you, make sure you live it to the fullest, and keep being the person that you seem to be.

Don't Forget to Take My Other 2 Tests

The Music (Rock That Is) Test

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The One Question Test

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Your Score: The Jaguar Spirit

You scored 65% Creativity, 47% Compassion, 53% Strength, and 48% Intelligence!

You are a Jaguar Spirit. You move like a predator, and enjoy the night. You are agile and graceful, and have amazing night vision. You tend to be solitary, but sometimes get along with one or two others. Jaguars are very wild spirits with strong wills.
Don't forget my two other spiritual tests:
Sitakaliism Test Paganism Test, my political test:
The Fruity Commie Pinko Liberal Test, and my Biology Test

Link: The Spirit Animal Test written by sitakali on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test

Sun, 10 Jun 2007 04:35:30 GMT

I'm so sick of TEENAGERS!!! Let me clarify! I'm sick of teenagers that I work with that they think they have it BAD! CFA is one of the best places to work and they complain NON-STOP! God Forbid they have to work a little bit here and there. Sure, I can be mean, but it's only because I've repeated myself TEN to TWENTY times on the SAME SUBJECT MATTER.... YOU DON'T FUCKING GET IT!!!! GET A CLUE.... How I wish I could say that but alas, there's that whole professional thing! *raWr* So I ended up losing my patience and snapping on a 15 year old girl and she cried and left. I kind of cared and then I was like, "wait, this is her first job, how the hell can she be complaning already? Fuck her!" And it didn't bother me. Thankfully, I got over it with some help from my buddy Austin *looks up* Thank you for him! :)
I'm going to bed and watching a movie and planning for my Summer Trips...
Later loves,
Lex

Quote of the Day: I don't believe you!

Thu, 07 Jun 2007 17:26:58 GMT

Well things in life seem to meet me half way nowadays... I got my car and I am SO HAPPY WITH IT! I love driving around in it! It makes me feel proud.
On the other hand, the day after I got my car, my dad got into a serious car accident on the way to Richmond to get my sister from a friend's house.... *EEK* I was the one who picked up the phone as he called the house. It was HORRIFYING!!! if it hadn't been for the Seat Belt and Air Bag, he wouldn't have survived! :( But My stepmom and I drove up to Petersburg to the hospital where he was at and we stayed with him until he was admitted. He ended up staying overnight for observation of two fractured ribs over his liver. My sister met us there and her and I drove back home and I didn't sleep well that night...
Thankfully, he's home, he's awake and aware. He's pretty beaten up though. I saw pictures of the car and it looks like an accordion. All squished in... *eek double* But my dad now will spend the next few weeks healing and off work. All in all.. it's a blessing that he's still here!

I am excited for summer, it's going to be a busy one! There again, life is meeting me half way. I have many plans and activites but some of them over loop one another so I have to pick one or the other... *raWr major*
We'll see where it all fans out! :)

Wed, 30 May 2007 00:11:30 GMT

ok, so the Tattoo thing fell through! I got up and went to work... DID EVERYTHING I WAS SUPPOSE TO, Got off at 215pm, waiting for me was a text message from Caitlin saying she was in Lynnhaven (for those who don't know VA Beach, it's the OPPOSITE WAY of where I was going) So i told her I was going the other way to Chesapeake and she said she "thought" she couldn't go. Turns out she was with her ex-boyfriend Cory. Mind you, they only lasted FIVE FREAKING DAYS! The whole reason she and I had the evening off was because we were going to get my tattoo! So she didn't go with me and I got PISSED OFF!!! This isn't the first time she has let me down and now I wash my hands of it. I'm tired of being let down by her. She's got some serious making up to do. So i got to the parlor and one guy was ahead of me. Well, Jeremy(tattoo dude) had one guy ahead of me. So i said I'd wait. it was 230 then, he wasn't done til 415 and I had to be somewhere by 5pm. So I said I'd come back tomorrow around 2pm when he got there. So I am going alone tomorrow and I don't care. I keep putting this off and enough is enough! I'M GETTING IT DONE ALONE OR NOT!
I'm getting "Lex" in pretty cursive black with the Italian and American Flags colored flying behind it. It's going on my left shoulder blade.

As for the event, casting has made me a MUCH HAPPIER girl! Plus, I acted like a REAL 1 year old sunder and everyone seemed to like me better. I enjoyed RPing her more too because I didn't have to be "grown up" and Serious.
Kim, I admit, teaming up with you and having Sithias call us forward to battle Hazbioa was AWESOME!!! :)
until of course, you got beserked and attacked me. But I took care of it! ;) So yeah,
there it is. I can't WAIT for June, I got more ink and after that, I'll be Ritual Air and get my first breath! I kind of wanted the Suffocate one but it's WC...rawr! We'll see! :)
Also, I plan on heading up to NoVA for a week in June! The week after the June Murshank Event! :) Happiness!
See everyone soon! :)
<3 Lex

Tomorrow/Today!

Tue, 29 May 2007 05:36:29 GMT

I GET MY FIRST TATTOO TOMORROW!!! Well, today, in about 13 hours!:) :) :) :)
I am so excited and so nervous! I work 11am to 2pm and then pick up caitlin and go to the Tattoo parlor. I'm getting it done at Ancient Art! I can't wait.
Then tomorrow I am going to test drive a few cars and see what I like. One is a nissan or a saturn!
We'll see!
The avalon event was AMAZING!!!! :) :) :) AMAZING, AMAZING, AMAZING. I am now a circle 6 air caster, as soon as i got my first offensive spell, i didn't pick up my weapons anymore. I didn't need them! Nor did I want them!

MOre later...

A nice update for once

Tue, 22 May 2007 03:20:34 GMT

Okay, so life has made a HUGE turn down another path. I am not returning to school in the fall. My grades and my motivation are not where they should be so I am putting it on the back burner.
So my parents have now decided it is time to being to pay rent living in the house, and buy my own car and pay for its insurance. Honestly, I'm not too upset. The only part I am upset about is I still have to approve where I go. RAWR! And my dad said specifically no Avalon. So I still have to keep that on the down low!
On a BETTER note, I am getting a long due raise and even better, a PROMOTION!!! I have begun to train to be a manager!!!! It has been a goal of mine since January and it's finally happening. My Boss, Beau, let me lead a shift for 4 hours on Wednesday and he said he saw a lot of potential in me and I will be doing more leading in the VERY near future! :) :) :) We have a meeting tomorrow for my progress and an evaluation from my other managers. I am excited and nervous...
Talk to you all later
and see most of you all SOON!!!!!
Avalon is this weekend and I am a busy sunder getting my tomes and costumes ready! :)
I can't Wait!!!

Does Strength mean lack of Feminitiy?

Fri, 11 May 2007 07:48:04 GMT

Ever since I can remember, I've been one strong female. When I try to help people lift things, showing I'm proud of my strength, it seems to give off the idea that I am trying to question a guy's masculinity. Ever since my dad married my stepmom, I've helped out with my stepsister who is physically handicap and in a wheelchair with no use of her legs. It made me proud when I heard "Lex can do it, she's just like her dad!" I was proud.
At work, I am joked at...
One night I got into a little petty fight and one of the guys slapped me and he came to me and said, "they said I shouldn't hit a lady, but I said I didn't see a lady." *gunshot to my happy mood*
Then last night, I was helping the kitchen clean up so we all could get out and I was going to help sweep without being asked. That same person goes, "that's a woman's job" and another of the guys goes, "where are we going to find one of them, we've only got Evan and ALEXIS" because I had just showed up one of the other guys in a game of mercy....
Everytime I try to hid my strength and my tomboyish self, it doesn't last long. I can't hide who I am... Then I wonder why I am. Oh, right, everyone questions what I am. *tear* It really makes me sad and a bit depressed. They may joke, but because of how I was raised, things like that always stay in my thoughts. People tell me I shouldn't care what people think of me. But I grew up being yelled and screamed that I was never good enough. I wasn't pretty, I wasn't smart, I didn't have friends because I was stupid, I was a brat, I was a bit*h, I was f*cked up, I was this, I was that. Because of my build, I wasn't a girl any guys would want to date. (the fact I've never been in any kind of relationship, doesn't help my case any.)
So I ask, does strength mean I am that much less of a woman?
A woman can be emotionally and mentally strong, but she can't be physically strong? Is that what society is telling us?
Then I remember that if it came down to it, I always know I can hold my own... But the jokes certainly don't help.
I can feel, I can think, I can... really, I can.

Life... goes on day after day

Tue, 08 May 2007 04:54:20 GMT

ok, so things are going okay. Except for the usual parent's controlling me thing...
I'm exceling at my job and today I talked to my boss about upping my hours for the Summer and getting a raise so I can begin saving for a place to rent... :) I am excited to get on my own. Granted, I have to pause school, but I feel like I am going to just go... Like that high school mentallity thing. So I am not going to go back in Fall... I want to get on my feet first and have my goals and what I want for myself in order... Yeah, going to take a bit of time! I think I am moving in the right direction!
Wish me luck tomorrow as I get an evaluation by my boss tomorrow and where the future will lead for me!
<3 Lex

Wed, 02 May 2007 06:21:49 GMT

This is really hard for me... I have to tell my parents I am moving on Friday and I am scared out of my mind. I'm TERRIFIED! It's such a weight on my mind... I feel like such a disappointment to all the people around me. I do OUTSTANDING at work but at school, I don't care. I don't have the motivation to put in the effort. Thus, I fail. *sigh*
A lot on my mind right now... HELP! Advice, Positive energy, encouragement wanted/NEEDED!!! Thanks

Dark Future was a nice break away... I hope to get to May Murshank! It's in the works! :)

Tue, 01 May 2007 05:49:03 GMT

I don't have the energy to write it all out at the moment but I have to say this...

I don't think my body has hurt so good in a LONG time!!! :)

that is all for the moment.... *cue avalon coma*

My Prince and Me!!!

Fri, 27 Apr 2007 07:00:13 GMT

Tonight was a nice ending of a Work week! I am almost done with school.. Thank Goodness!!! Exams left and SUMMER 2007!!!
Tonight was one CRAZY night at work! It was myself, Erwin and Walter in the Kitchen. Things were going good. Dinner rush hit, got a little crazy, but we managed and then around 845pm, I began to wash the THOUSANDS OF DISHES! heh heh! It's not so bad, I listened to my IPOD and it kept me sane and on track. Around 9pm, none other than My Prince arrives and that puts me in a really happy mood! So then I get into a giddy mood and rattail Erwin... (Rat tail = to flick a wet rag forward and snap it back as it hits another person's body causing it to leave a bruise and a sting like a bee) Then Josh came back and we began to face off against each other... So Erwin then comes and they double team me and Josh then steps up to defend me. :) Good times! He always did say he'd protect me... So we rat tail Erwin and end up running him out of the store. :) We all then go back to "normal" and cleaning. I then for some reason or another as Erwin was wiping down a counter, as he got up, I went to kick him in his butt and he grabbed my foot and i lost my balance slipping on my butt... it hurt. I was scared I broke my arm or something, but it just stung a bit, no big deal. I then bring up my hand and I have blood coming from a cut on my palm... *great*
Next thing I know, Josh comes over with a little first aid kit and begins to make me all better... He's got such a heart of gold! :) He isn't known as "my prince" for nothing... So he patched me up and I went back to cleaning...
We have a weird sort of relationship... We're really close and care for each other very much, we have a ton of fun together. So many late night Walmart and Farm Fresh Trips... :) But we're not sure if it's ever going to lead to something more... I have said that I am open for anything Fate tosses at me, and we're gonna see what Fate decides. :)
It's an interesting thing!